I wish I could just record down all my emotions now. I've had months of general disillusionment with human relationships and building frustration, weeks of wishing that university wasn't starting, and six days of terrible insomnia. Now I feel uplifted all at once: joy, anticipation and relief merging into a happy whole.

The joy was from a stayover at my cousin's place, which reminded me of how nice human silliness and laughter are. The anticipation came surprisingly after the convocation ceremony, which was pretty much as boring as promised except for the brilliant concert at the end, and a long chat with my orientation group on the Esplanade rooftop. The relief at finally making the decision to just be honest, get things out of my system, face the impossible and just move on. And of course, the girl talk plus OG sharing which was just nice.

No more sleepless nights. A whole new stage of my life to look forward to. I love people! I love life! I'm suddenly very happy to be alive, and happier that so many wonderful people around me are alive. That sounds mushy and I'm not usually mushy, so this is evidently a Rare Moment.

Thank you dears!

Strange what emotional turbulence does to you.